After seeing myself in a full length mirror, it was too much to handle. Way too much to go around! That’s how I felt as well.
Just looking at myself made me cry—sob hysterically was more like it—as my dog, Angel, just sat on the bathroom floor with me and stared at me like I had lost my mind.
Which I had.
Sometimes animals are so much smarter than us humans. Maybe it is because they only see life in black and white. After the tears dried up and my head was totally stopped up and pounding, I knew I had to do something about myself.
Being an English major, I first went to the book store and online and researched all the things I should be doing until I was so confused and weighed down that I didn’t know which end was up. And of course during all this research I didn’t once take a walk or a jog, I just did what I always did.
Sat on my butt and did nothing. But I did learn some things. Like research is good if you are doing a paper on Shakespeare, but for this so much knowledge can be paralyzing. Then you sit and do nothing.
One person would say you should eat more protein, one said not to eat a lot of protein, no fruit on one and in the same search, I found someone who said I could have all the fruit I wanted.
What the hell!?
Could we get on the same page, please people?
I tried pretty much all of them and I failed miserably, but I learned a lot about foods and what eating the right food could do for you along this journey.
I also found that I should listen to my body. If I ate something and it did not seem to digest well or it raised my blood sugar then I would not eat it or would change what I ate with it.
For example, if you are going to eat something that is a carb, especially a fast carb that is going to break down in your body as sugar quickly, then you should eat something with protein in it like a piece of cheese or peanut butter.
It is also better to stay away from fast carbs like white breads and sugary foods and drinks for example. If you eat these with no protein—which breaks down slower and helps to keep your blood sugar from bottoming out—you will crash.
Just think of it this way—if you shoot your blood sugar up with a sugary drink or candy and then there is nothing to hold your sugar up and keep it level until the next time you eat then…
Yep. You guessed it. What goes up will come crashing down!
Trust me, you do not want to learn this by having your sugar bottom out and all of a sudden you are sick as a dog and seeing those black little dots, feeling pin pricks on your head and sweating bullets just before you pass out.
Not a fun way to learn and lesson!
But what can I say? My grandma always said I had to do everything the hard way.
I also figured out that I wasted a lot of time researching things when I could have gotten off my butt and done some exercise instead of researching what kind I needed to do. But, that is a whole other topic we’ll discuss later.