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Hi everybody. Sorry for not posting in so long, but we have had many things going on in our household. We bought a house this month, and have been busy with the closing and with making the house truly “ours” by painting and making preparations to add a sun room.  It has been a wonderful and busy experience for the entire household. We have also had some sickness in the family–my mother in law had a heart attack and had to have a triple bypass. Things were complicated by the fact that she is also diabetic. So needless to say, it has been a little hectic lately.  Work has been busy as well for both me and my wife.  It is hard to sit down and try to write when you come home dead tired from work.   Usually, all I want to do is sit down and watch TV–and most nights that is what I do.  But lately, it has not been that gratifying for me.  I feel restless and unhappy, and am not quite sure what to do to make it all better.  I have gained some weight, and am thoroughly dissatisfied with myself, my job, and what I have become. How does one find the motivation when it is hard to muster up any enthusiasm for doing anything?  I feel like I have let myself down and my wife down.  I used to be able to be the motivator but lately it is hard for me to motivate myself to do anything.  I have been having bouts of deep sadness and frustration.  And it all stems from my low self image at the moment.  I don’t really feel pretty or worth anything right now.  I know my family loves me, but I feel like I disappoint them in many ways.  I’m not as attentive as I should be sometimes, and I find myself not being the kind of friend, family member, and wife that I should be.  I am bad at taking things, situations, and people I love for granted sometimes.  It is depressing.  And my own fault.  So now that I have noticed this, I need to make it right. So, what am I going to do to turn this around and be the kind of person that my wife,...

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Anxiety and My Seizure Disorder

The world today is a much busier, fast-paced place to live and work in.  People all around us may have to cope with varying amounts of stress and anxiety almost daily.  Stress and anxiety can be found in most places and situations—you or your co-workers discuss stress and anxiety that is a result of your job, or maybe a situation in your personal life is causing you to be stressed out, or maybe a health concern is causing you or a loved one excessive worry and stress.  Whatever the situation may be, we all need to learn what the effects of living with too much stress, anxiety, or worry can do to our health—both mentally and physically.  I have had to learn this lesson the hard way. I had my first grand mal seizure when I was 17 years old.  I had gone through a stressful situation the night before,  I was still upset over the situation, but thought no more of it until the following afternoon when my brother and I had an argument (albeit a playful one) about whose turn it was to feed the dog.  During this argument, I started seeing black dots before my eyes.  I remember grasping the bridge of my nose with my right index finger and thumb…and the next thing I remember is hearing my mom screaming my name hysterically while shaking my left arm.  It took me a few minutes to realize that I was lying on the floor.  I was totally drained…I was so weak that I could not even open my eyes at first.  I had no idea what had happened, but my whole family thought that I was dead.  After I regained consciousness and got enough strength back to open my eyes and ask what had happened, my mom told me that I had fallen to the floor with my eyes rolled into my  head and began convulsing and gasping for breath.  She said that at one point I arched my back and stopped breathing altogether.  I stopped breathing until I turned blue, and then suddenly relaxed my back, gasped for breath, and got very still.  I had what is known as a grand mal seizure. My mother took me to the ER to be examined.  I was admitted to the hospital, and...

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Resolutions Suck

Every year on January 1st the entire nation (and maybe even world) make resolutions to change certain things in their lives—lose 50 pounds, win the lottery, finally clean out that overstuffed closet, etc. And every year, many people break those resolutions within a few weeks or months. I have been no exception to this trend. This year, I decided to break the cycle and not make resolutions. This year, I made goals instead. What is the difference you...

Freezer Meals

A couple of months ago, my wife and I started making freezer meals that our son or my mother could just pop into the crock pot or oven before we came home from work. We did this because we get home from work around 4:30 pm – 5:00 pm every evening and do not feel like having to cook a big meal. By the time we get home, change into out of our work clothes and get started cooking dinner,...

Chili for a Healthy Liver

I have bee on the look out for recipes that help promote liver health.  During my search, I came across a site called www.loveyourliver.com that has a lot of great information for getting and keeping one’s liver healthy.  As I was perusing the site, I came across a great looking Chili recipe, which I want to share: Chunky Chile Con Carne Serves: 6 Ingredients 500g stewing steak trimmed of fat and cut into 2cm cubes 1 onion, chopped 1 carrot,...

Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead Part 2

Last night my partner and I watched Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead Part 2. We had watched Part 1 several months before, and were eager to see what FSND 2 had to offer. I really like the concept of juicing to reboot my body and to get rid of the toxins that I have been putting into my body all these years. I have let myself go quite a bit lately ( I currently weigh 278 lbs. and...